November 12, 2011

Sometimes

Sometimes you just need a good cry. Today was one of those days.
Sometimes a bad day turns good- as was the case today, and sometimes a good day turns bad- as the case was yesterday.
Sometimes I eat dessert after breakfast. Sometimes red velvet cake is necessary after my bowl of cereal (today.)
Sometimes I tell BJ nothing's wrong even when something is. He always knows better though, and in his own words responds, "does life suck right now for you too?"
Sometimes pastors insult my husband and his religion inside Anthropologie and I have to pull my husband away with a courteous, "We don't think you're going to hell- we just think that after you die you'll realize we were right."
Sometimes this little one tests my patience.
Sometimes she doesn't.
Sometimes it gets cold in California... sometimes.
Sometimes I watch episode after episode of Diners, Drive-Ins, and Dives and want to eat the world and meet Guy Fiedi.
Sometimes I lie next to my baby while she naps and I think I'm in heaven.
Sometimes it's weird kissing BJ after I've spent all day kissing Ellie. Two very different things I tell you.
Sometimes my happiness is dependent on eating. This happens more often than it should.
Sometimes eating peppermint and chocolate frozen yogurt with peppermint bark topping feels like the best thing that's ever happened too me.
Sometimes I fantasize about food. I would say always- but every once in a while another thought gets in the way.
Sometimes I drool when I look at the previous picture. (What am I gonna do to get my hands on another one of those?)
Sometimes I loathe everything about football season. I am so over football playing on the t.v.
Sometimes I get to buy something pretty to wear. Today was one of those days.
Sometimes I miss my siblings so much it makes me sick.
Sometimes I get mad... usually when we talk about polygamy.
Sometimes the goodness of God is so palpable I get a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes.
Sometimes I like going to bed early and sometimes I like to stay up late.
Sometimes I'm not in the mood to exercise.
Sometimes I miss Ellie when she's asleep in the other room.
Sometimes I wish I lived 200 years ago.
Sometimes I wish I was a 50's housewife.
Sometimes I get discouraged and regretful. I wish I could change things that can't be changed and improve things that are too late to be improved.
Sometimes I feel perfectly content.
Sometimes my husband and daughter are so delicious to me I have to post all 3 of their pictures.


Sometimes I feel full of love and sometimes I'm flat out mean.
Sometimes all of life's anxieties can be calmed with a hug (today- thanks Beej.)
Sometimes...

4 comments:

  1. you are BEAUTIFUL! and so is your little family.
    what a cute post!!! its so true, all of it.

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  2. i love this post. :-) Sometimes you really do need a good cry. and Sometimes its just nice for someone to agree that that is okay. Glad you got to buy something cute...that always makes things better (usually ha)

    Little Ellie is adorable...can't wait for her to meet Sage!

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  3. It's nice to read that you and your life aren't always completely perfect, cause to tell you the truth you are in my mind. And I always feel like I fall short after reading your adorable posts. Such a true post and I feel everything you said in it. Love you and miss you!

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  4. Amen Ellery. Amen. Everything you said is how I feel every single day also. You were just able to put it in words. Well put!

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